a glimpse into divorce...written 5/26/10

you can spend a lifetime with someone and never really know them...i spent almost 10 years of my life building a life with a man that was so weak that when things got difficult he found himself in another woman's arms. yes i was the one that left...but i didn't walk away...i was trying to work on it and fight for it and like i said before it was easier to start something new than it was to fix what was clearly broken. i want to trust again...i want to love again...but can i get past that hurt? can you get past the hurt that was caused by someone that had your trust in their own hands and your tears on their heart...when i see him he can't even bring himself to look in my eyes or say hello...how can you say that what we had meant nothing when we loved each other enough to create life together??? i can honestly say that leaving that coward was the best thing i ever did with my life. how can i respect a man that can't even show human decency to a woman he once loved. it's true what they say...listen to the way a man speaks of his mother because it truly will show you how he will someday treat you. i wish i had listened to my heart the first time he spoke ill of his mother. and now to see how easily he can be controlled by this new woman that he's willing to sabotage the relationship with his child's mother all for a piece of ass...it's true it's a powerful thing and some men are too weak to see past it.